Thursday, 30 October 2008
/ 9:51 pm
Goodbye A1s.
Why did this happen? I actually flunk-ed my best subject. Was it just a time-management problem? I doubt so.
O Levels. It seems to a hurdle to many. I thought I could conquer it. I was wrong. So so wrong. Walking into the hall with such confidence but walking out with such pain inside. Perhaps not pain but great disappointment. I know the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment. But . . .
I thought excusing myself from my friends right after the exam and get home straight might help me to think it through. I thought it would help me not to dwell over it. On the bus, I saw this girl. Someone who came to cheer me up. I didnt expect to see her but I had a feeling I might see her. I believe the Lord had a purpose. It was not coincidental. Why her?
There's are so many things my mind cannot understand, Lord. Help me to feel You with my heart. I'm not going to let this break me or pull me down. It will not happen. It was hard not to dwell on it. Really hard. The chances of getting an A1 is minimal. I need a miracle. If I cant get an A for my best subject, what will become of my others?
I know I know.. No point crying over spilled milk. Perhaps it might be an opportunity I find out who are my TRUE friends. haha. Time to make plans for alternative courses. ah. I dont even have a clue where I will be going. But I suppose that can wait.
Let's see how I get throught this "storm". I hate this feeling of despair, discouragement, disappointment & defeat but life goes on. One obstacle after another. I Will Get Over it!
Why did this happen? I actually flunk-ed my best subject. Was it just a time-management problem? I doubt so.
O Levels. It seems to a hurdle to many. I thought I could conquer it. I was wrong. So so wrong. Walking into the hall with such confidence but walking out with such pain inside. Perhaps not pain but great disappointment. I know the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment. But . . .
I thought excusing myself from my friends right after the exam and get home straight might help me to think it through. I thought it would help me not to dwell over it. On the bus, I saw this girl. Someone who came to cheer me up. I didnt expect to see her but I had a feeling I might see her. I believe the Lord had a purpose. It was not coincidental. Why her?
There's are so many things my mind cannot understand, Lord. Help me to feel You with my heart. I'm not going to let this break me or pull me down. It will not happen. It was hard not to dwell on it. Really hard. The chances of getting an A1 is minimal. I need a miracle. If I cant get an A for my best subject, what will become of my others?
I know I know.. No point crying over spilled milk. Perhaps it might be an opportunity I find out who are my TRUE friends. haha. Time to make plans for alternative courses. ah. I dont even have a clue where I will be going. But I suppose that can wait.
Let's see how I get throught this "storm". I hate this feeling of despair, discouragement, disappointment & defeat but life goes on. One obstacle after another. I Will Get Over it!
